One decision down, more to come...

I got the call this past monday....someone dropped out of the program in Mesa and I got in!! The class starts Jan 4, and so I told my advisor I would talk with my parents and call her the next day with my answer. Let me tell ya, I had tossed around every possbible outcome of this decision and I honestly was at a standstill. My sisters were at my house that night so I talked with them and my parents, they all gave me adivce and opinions on what and how I should make the decision. I turned to my mom and dad mainly though, but in my mom's words, "I don't know Jen, its your decision..you have to be the one who makes it" This makes me laugh, my entire life my mom has been making decisions for me and when I finally turn to her and say ok mom what do I do...she leaves it up to me!

My dad gave me a blessing before I went to bed and oh my goodness did that help. I knew the next hour or so I would need all the help I could get. Right after the blessing, I broke down ...I don't even know why. My bro-in-law told me to write out the pros and cons so thats what I did. I also called Dee right away, she's me other half and she knows what and how I see things and almost every single time we are thinking the same thing...we talked for 2 hours (Thanks so much Dee, I know you had homework and studying to do but you knew I needed you and you just let me vent and gave me adivce!!) And Dee gave me a chain of scriptures to read about personal revelation and what we sould seek after. So there I sat til about 1 or so in the morning...

I called my Advisor the next day and told her it just didn't feel right and that it wasn't my time to go to Mesa or just not the right place. I was just very frustrated and confused everytime I thought about Mesa and after I turned them down I felt calm which was really weird. I seriously have the BEST family though. First thing tuesday morning, my bro-in-law (who I think saw tears in my eyes the night before and knew how worried I was) asked what I had decided and the rest of my family were completely supportive. Thank you guys!!! I know I've been the Mayor of Crazy Town, but Thanks!!

So one decision down, more to come. I have yet to hear from Tucson and I just got my acceptance letter from Northcentral Tech College in Wausau. Crazy thing happened though Monday afternoon before I got the call, my neices were over right after school and as they were walking out, my sis-in-law said..."I don't know..ask her." Then B comes around the corner and asked.."Are you moving?" I laughed because I honestly didn't know myself, but I had been leaning towards staying here and said "Probably not B, I'm more than likely staying here" What happened next broke my heart, after I said this my sis-in-law goes "see B, Auntie is staying here you don't have to miss her anymore" oh my goodness, break my heart, like I said I seriously have the BEST family!!